Tarot Reading - General Situation

I logged in to this website that gives free tarot reading, and I asked for a general life reading and I was bit shock of the outcome. "Sapul ako!Kaloka! At least I have some guide as where I am heading! Not that I truly believe this.

How you feel about yourself now (The Magician)

You feel a sense of purpose and the willpower to get things done. Self-empowerment is the key word here. Any new enterprises in love or career show great potential. You feel that you have the ability to think on your feet and, faced with opposition, the appearance of The Magician is an excellent omen of success. Time to believe in your self and go for it!

What you most want at this moment (The Empress)


The cards suggest Charlemagne, that at this time you desire comfort, security and happiness and may well need some emotional support and reassurance. (If you are considering having a baby the desire will be very strong at this time, or perhaps you are already pregnant and you have some concerns. If male, perhaps you are considering fatherhood with someone but have concerns.) Things will turn out fine, just know that you are loved and that there are people around you who care.

Your fears (Wheel Of Fortune)


You are in fear of everything turning for the worse for you, perhaps you are experiencing a run of bad luck. You have to trust that most of what we fear never happens and as The Wheel of Fortune turns downwards against you, the wheel will naturally turn upwards again and bring good fortune to you too. This difficult phase will pass.

What is going for you (The Fool)


This is an exciting time with much potential for fun and good times. Your confidence should be high, it's a great time for new possibilities. If you are considering leaving your job, home or relationship, in time you will. An unexpected desire will be fulfilled, even before you express it!

What is going against you (The World)


As always, fear holds us back and so often leads to missed opportunities. Do not give up or change direction this late in the game just because you have experienced delays - stick with it, have faith and trust the universe, and you will reach the successful conclusion you are wanting.

Outcome (The Devil)


If your previous cards have been positive and your main consideration has been about a relationship then there’s a possibility of commitment, even a proposal of marriage. If this is not the case this a final opportunity for you to change course, because the temptation you are experiencing concerning a relationship, money or materialism or any other kind of addiction won’t lead to a happy ending. If you are feeling low in self-belief and self worth and doubt your abilities, don’t, have more confidence - its not too late to change direction.

SHELTER - A Great Movie To Watch

I always liked gay-themed movies. The ones that does not really focuses on sex and too fabulous lifestyles. Unless it was a comedy like Another Gay Movie, a gay-spoof of The American Pie.
I like to watch how gay relationships blossom and wilted.Feel good movies that touches emotions. I like happy endings and heartbreaks. Men falling, loving and caring for other men. Men like me.
Then I saw the movie SHELTER, staring Trevor Wright (Zack) and Brad Rowe (Shaun). After watching the movie I felt good inside, I longed for someone to love, or better, I longed to fall in love again.
You know that feeling of being in love? I’m sure you do.
A story of a guy name Zack, whose real personality he represses for the sake of his singled-mother sister, nephew and sickly father. Taking the responsibilities of his father when his mother died. The only person her sister holds on to. A simple guy with dreams of going to art school.
He tried to make both ends meet, helping in the family finances at the same time taking care of his nephew and balancing a love life with his girlfriend and his love of surfing.
Until he met his bestfriend’s brother and things turned upside down. At first he tried to control his feelings, but feeling like bursting inside, he let go. He broke up with his girlfriend to pursue a relationship with Shaun. At first, it was like a whirlwind romance until reality hit them. They have to come out. This scared Zack. But eventually after every trial there’s victory.
I won’t tell the rest of the story, you guys have to watch this movie. You’ll never regret it.
Promise.
Another bonus is the AMAZING, yes, amazing soundtrack mostly by a certain artist named SHANE MACK. Songs like Lie To Me, More Than This and I Like That will really get your attention and add the movie, whew, a perfect combination.
I tried hard to look for his songs; I used Limewire, You Tube, search the net, and luckily I got some. They are hard to find songs, now I had them in my collection. I listen to them when I am having my “moments” and relieving the last time I fell in love.

Angel Oracle - The Angel of Glory

The Angel of Glory, another timely card from my Angel Oracle.
Last night me, a housemate and a friend had some few drinks, just to pass some time, and time passes indeed ‘cause before we knew it, it’s 1:00 AM. We call it a night and went sleep. I slept soundly, I slept with someone beside me.
How I missed sleeping with someone breathing beside me. I don’t mind the snoring, because I know someone is lying with me. The air conditioning unit was cold, but I felt warm and safe especially when he held me in his arms.
I woke up in the middle of my sleep with a gripping pain in my chest. It was horrible, it felt like a vice grip is compressing my chest. I thought, am I having a heart attack? It can’t be, wild thoughts run through my head, I held my chest, I held the guy beside me’s hand, closed my eyes again and take deep breaths. Inhaling deeply and exhaling slowly I go about 5 sets I think until the pain subsided.
It was scary, but I was relieved when the pain went away and I try to fall asleep again.
All through this episode, I forgot one thing. I forgot to pray, to call upon Him for some comfort.
This morning, I got this card, and felt guilty. I realized that lately I’ve been taking for granted my nightly Bible reading, my listening to Christian music and my conversations with Him. Now I had a wake-up call, I took this as a reminder that in a place where life is hard and lonely, He is the only source of strength and joy. That I should be giving Him praise and glory for the reason I still wake up every day.
I pray that nightmare won’t happen again. Ever.

Anne Rice's Christ The Lord

In my old blog, I told you guys how much a fan I am of Anne Rice. The celebrated author of The Vampire Chronicles that started with The Interview With A Vampire, that also became a movie; of the lives of Mayfair Witches in Taltos and Feast of All Saints; from the story of resurrection, immortality and love in The Mummy and all those make believe characters that is so believable, you’d wish they were all real.
Her imagery and detailed story-telling, most often incorporating real history in her novels makes her the best! I had countless sleepless nights reading her books that are so hard to put down.
Until for some divine intervention she changed her faith and beliefs, from being an Atheist to going back to Catholicism. You could read in her novels, specially her infamous Lestat character, his never ending search for the truth, God, and the purpose of being, that she really is in search for inner peace and faith.
Her first book after her momentous turn-back-to-religion episode of her life was Christ The Lord, Out of Egypt, I waited for the paper back for months for a while as I cannot afford the hard bound edition. Once I got hold of the book, I couldn’t let it down. I read each page with so much enthusiasm that in two days I’m done.
Her story took me back to the time when Jesus Christ, yes, our Lord and Savior is just a child growing in loving family together with His aunts, uncles and cousins. How as a child, Jesus lives as normal as any child can be. Only his Mother, Mary and foster father Joseph seemed to know how special He is.
Out of Egypt, cause that time His family was living in Egypt due to the census thing and Egypt offers a lot of opportunities for the family in terms of carpentry. Again, their main livelihood, the men that is are carpentry and theirs are famous because of the excellent finishes and one of a kind designs.
I won’t tell the rest of the story so as not to give away the suspense, all in all it’s a good novel. There are some boring chapters but nevertheless these are key elements to the completeness of the story.
It tells how human God became through Jesus, how He viewed the world around Him as a Child already full of wisdom at the same time full of innocence. I guess this is synonymous to Anne Rice’s new journey in rediscovering with child-like curiosity her new found faith in God.
I, too at one point tried to search for the purpose of my existence. I embraced New Age and Christianity just to understand why I am like this, why my life went that way and where my life is heading.
I learned that, one’s belief in the Divine Creator is to each, his own. No one has any right to tell you what you’re doing is right or wrong, or worst, judge you! You alone should know the difference, for you alone will stand in front of God at Judgment Day to take account all the things you did with your life. How you loved and how you cared, how you go on whenever your journey is hard, how you pray for strength and guidance, how you believe.
So much for that, I am looking forward in purchasing the sequel which is Christ The Lord, The Road To Canaan, this time Jesus is now a full grown man.

Angel Oracle - Guardian Angel Of Health

I consulted my Angel Oracle, and the Guardian Angel of Health came up. I asked for some guidance today over anything that might need my attention. So, I am told to check my health, or my well-being. It is timely because, I have been planning to go back to working out. I stopped because I went for a month long vacation, and at the same time it's winter here in Saudi Arabia and I am too lazy to work out, I'd rather eat. I eat with gusto, I don't care lately what I eat, all those fats and calories!
It's nice to eat when it's cold. For me anyway. But I need to get back into shape, my tummy is beginning to bulge and I don't like it! Yeah I catch my breath lately whenever I get up a flight of stairs! That is not a good sign!

So starting...no, I should not promise something, I might not keep. I'll just do it!
Stop overeating, and take good, healthy food...hmmm...I wonder what's for dinner?

Seven Deadly Sins - Anger

What it is: Anger is manifested in the individual who spurns love and opts instead for fury. It is also known as Wrath.
Why you do it: You're wired for it. Also, the people around you are pretty damn irritating.
Your punishment in Hell will be: You'll be dismembered alive.
Associated symbols & suchlike: Anger is linked with the bear and the color red

Have you ever been so angry that you feel like exploding? Or the first thing your hand grabs will surely fly? Or have you ever been so mad about something that if you sleep on it, the next day you felt as miserable as hell and the anger doubled?
Have you? Am glad I have not. I rarely get angry, I get frustrated, I get downhearted, I get jealous, but I seldom feel angry.
Maybe because I let things be, I would try to change things, but if the object of my effort does not cooperate, or give in, I let it go.
When someone hurt me, I just suck it in, cry a little, mope a bit and then I immediately move on and forget it. When I feel like I am being left out, I move away. When I think I am treated unfairly, I just say, my time will come.
But on times, though rare that it might be, like my Chinese Zodiac Sign, the Ox, when I get angry, I charge! I don’t look back nor even think! I charge, to hurt! I charge to destroy! I charge to get even!
And I regret it afterwards.
May God continue to give me strength to control those rare times that I get angry.
I don’t want to be dismembered.

Some Thoughts

If the person doesn’t love you, do not complain, because there are also people who loves you that you don’t, so call it quits.
If you love two persons, pick the second person, because you won’t love another when you really love the first.
It doesn’t mean that if you chat constantly, talk over the phone, go out together or exchange endless SMS messages that you are liked or you’ll end up together. It seems that there are people who are really overfriendly, sweet, flirt or likes to give false hopes.
Sometimes even if you are on schedule, you still have to wait, because you are not the priority.
Do you know how far the distance is between two people who turned their backs from each other? You need to go around the world just to come face to face with the other person you turned your back from again.
It is better to fail in doing something, than to succeed in doing nothing.
Not all that you can understand is the truth, and not all that you cannot fathom is a lie.
Let go of the things that hurt you even though they make you happy. Don’t wait for the day that only pain will remain and happiness has left you.
Love is like a man hole…it is scary to fall in…and when you do, it’s either by accident or you’re just plain stupid.
If you wait for someone to flirt with you, nothing will happen. You also have to flirt.
Don’t let go of the thing that you cannot bear see others holding them.
Don’t hold on to something you know you’ll let go.
Don’t you ever hold on to another when you know you are already holding on to something.
Leave if you’re not happy anymore. There is no cure for being a fool but by taking the initiative.